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Pam's Journal  Everybody is talking about the formal lately. Its driving me crazy, cuz I dont have a date yet this year. I don't even have a dress or anything yet. And I dont wanna spend money on a dress and a hairdo just to stand by a wall the entire night. If I get a date, I'd be more than happy to go out and look for a dress and pay to get my hair done, but I'm too chicken to ask the person that I really wanna go with. And I'm starting to wonder if I even should ask him or not.... So I'm making a list of pros and cons of asking him.... Here goes.... Pros: * what if i dont ask then find out he would have said yes... * we are good friends, and thats all i wanna be, i just wanna go as friends * i would have an excuse to go buy a dress :) * my friends are all asking ppl and i dont wanna be the only one without a date * he's really nice and i really like him * he drives.. lol (cmon u know thats important!! hehe) * i have an idea of how to bring up the topic... * we have a lot in common Cons: * i fear rejection * he has a girlfriend... sorta * if i ask him ill be to afraid to talk to him in school again * its easy to say no on the internet and im not gonna call him * some people may get mad at me if i ask him * IM A CHICKEN... Well thats about it... I guess pros outweigh the cons.. so ill ask... but leave me a comment to boost my spirits and wish me luck! ~*~ Pam ~*~ Current mood:  nervous.
OMG!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nick Carter got arrested and he's facing up to 1 year in jail!!!!!! :*( :*( My Poor Baby!!!!! How could you live with yourself knowing that you arrested Nick Carter! I hope he's ok.. and that he hasnt balled his eyes out like i did... ~*~ Pam ~*~ Current mood: shocked.
Hey People!! What is up?? I've been doing a little thinking and a little resolution making. Haha. What fun... the surprising thing is that so far I've kept them all! YAY... I can't tell you all of them... but I can say that one of them was to live a little, and I feel that i have been doing that well so far. I laugh alot each day, I don't worry about the small stuff, and im enjoying myself alot lately :) :) Yeah I know Im a dork, but at least im open about it (LoL Steph). HaHa! Hmmmm... so whats new.... the formal's comin up and i have no date... but dont worry im working on it... ill get one. Maybe ill even get the one i actually want! LoL fat chance but, it could very well happen.... Ill make sure to keep ya posted! Hey if anyone has seen Moulin Rouge leave me a comment and tell me what ya thought... im still debating whether or not i wanna see it. Tyler is really hoping I'll see it, but im still thinking. Soooo.... I guess I'll Talk to ya Laters!!! :) :) ~*~ Pam ~*~ Current mood:  happy.
Hey guys, sorry I havent written in so long, its just that I have a boring life and I also got a real diary, but its not like the normal ones.. its really cool... you write a letter to someone in it. Like whoever you feel like writing to, you write Dear so and so.. and then tell them y u are writing to them, and what u are writing about... it may sound dumb but i really love it. I can be so much more personal in it, because nobody else reads it so they wont get their feelings hurt. Anways, I still have fun writing in this one, so as long as u keep reading, ill keep writing :) As most of u know, Adam was a fake, and I dont really like him (but i still want my CHRISTmas present Mandi - ya know, for the joke). "The Hardest Thing Is Watching the One You LOVE, love someone else" - Some of you dont know about this guy, nor do u care that I like him, but I do like him... alot.... What bothers me is that this time I know he's a good guy, and he could be right for me, and I can honestly see myself with him in the future (unlike well.... everyone else); but #1.) he DOESNT GET SUBTLE HINTS (he's probably reading this right now going "hmm i wonder who's she's talking about. thats cute") and #2.) he has a girlfriend ( who by the way is really cool and I can see why he likes her.. but they are soooo wrong for each other... seriously, i know I'm biased, but I'm not the only one who thinks that). Anyways, you dont have to listen to me ramble, I'm just lovesick and lonely right now.. :( but I'll be all good.... :) :) Luv Ya Lots!! ~*~Pammy~*~ Current mood:  lonely.
I am in a great mood. Haha. I had a fun day. And do you wanna know why? Because some people are mad at me and i dont care!! hear that?? I DONT CARE!!! The one person has hated my guts from the moment we met (i dont know why, its not like im mean to her or anything, i barely even talk to her) and the other person gets mad at me for EVERYTHING i do... i cant seem to do anything right for her. So ya know what... she can bite me. I don't care! She'll get over it in a few days as usual, but the thing is... maybe i wont be over it this time, and she'll realize how much of a B*itch she's been to me all these years. Who knows... maybe she'll even learn to stop talking to people behind their backs and to stop being so friggin pessimistic 24/7. So maybe me not caring whether or not she hates me will in the long run help her... hmmm.... I mean thats not the only reason my day was great.. I also finally got something off my chest that ive wanted to say for forever now... and ya know what that is? me liking adam was all fake. i just did it to tick some people off cuz they know that I shouldnt like people like him. HAHA... but no i dont like anyone new now... sooo... ill talk to you later!! buh bye :) :) ~*~ Pam~*~ Current mood:  energetic.
Hey Hey ~ Whats up? Not much here. I am in a horrible mood right now... I had a lousy day and a lousy night to top it off. I wish ppl wouldnt make promises that get my hopes up and then not follow through. That really ticks me off. I am in like a state of severe depression right now... Im at that stage where I am laughing at everything and I dont know why cuz im so unhappy. Its crazy, I dont know how to explain it, you probably think I'm nuts, well, you're only partially right. (I dont even like nuts... see that to me was hilarious, and i know it was a dumb joke, which means something is wrong) Anyways, Im not in the mood for alot right now, so if you're gonna try and help me feel better, than seriously try, dont just pretend to be nice and jolly and then totally ignore me the rest of the day... I'd mention names, but for all I know he may read this journal. Oh well. ~*~Pam~*~ Current mood:  cynical.
blah.... i need a change.. i need a guy.... i want a guy... i want one guy.... no wait, now there's two.. darn... i have to choose. But i cant. I mean i know i have to, but both are impossible. HELP!!! Current mood:  stressed.
Im soo excited... I cant give u too many details, but something good is gonna happen tomorrow.... YAY... Thanks Pam2!!! Right now Im very optimistic, happy, hopeful, bouncy, loud, and more, but mostly im giddy, and since im only allowed to pick one thing for the icon thats what its gonna be.... YAY.... well ill talk to ya tomorrow and give ya an update!! ~*~Pam~*~ PS: pray that operation mada works... lol :):):) Current mood:  giddy.
Im soo excited... I cant give u too many details, but something good is gonna happen tomorrow.... YAY... Thanks Pam2!!! Right now Im very optimistic, happy, hopeful, bouncy, loud, and more, but mostly im giddy, and since im only allowed to pick one thing for the icon thats what its gonna be.... YAY.... well ill talk to ya tomorrow and give ya an update!! ~*~Pam~*~ PS: pray that operation mada works... lol :):):) Current mood: giddy.
I know a quote that says: ~*~The hardest thing is watching the person you love love someone else.~*~ (author unknown) That is so true. I can't even count the number of times I've lived through that *cough*three*cough*. It's horrible. Ya know what, I give up. No more trying to impress people or make them realize that deep down inside they're in love with me. If they like me for who I am then that's cool, if I have to change myself for someone to like me, then why even bother? ~*~one fine day you'll look at me and then you'll know our love was meant to be, you're gonna want me for your girl; one fine day we'll meet once more and then you'll want the love you threw away before~*~ ~*~This must be the place. I can tell by your glare. I wouldn't touch you on a dare. Seven months to June and even then, so what? My mouth is open, my book is shut. My air guitar is out of tune. My stupid hair is so '82 to you. At least I don't fit in...Got better friends than you. Just can't remember where I left them....We're just waiting. Waiting to begin.~*~ Well I guess I better get back to writing our arrangement of "O Holy Night" for the talent show. It's gonna be cool, Courtney is using the same melody that Jewel used in her Christmas CD, and I'm writing my own harmony to it, so I hope you like it!! ~*~Pam~*~ Current mood:  contemplative.
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